Soul Searching...

I am a proponent of the New American Spirituality. The New American Spirituality is the result of the blending of various cultures and belief systems which mix and mingle in our little corner of the globe. Then we, as Americans, pick and choose that which fits us best.

This is a threat to organized religions. Most religions exist on the fear of damnation, if you don't follow their mandates and precepts you will certainly receive the punishment of eternal hell. What organized religion REALLY requires to survive, is the financial contributions of their followers. With all this influence, there is not a single organized religion that has solved any global issue. In fact, MOST have made global plagues like war and famine worse. Can you imagine what would happen if all the followers of the various world religions stood up and said they would withdraw their support if their church leaders didn't undertake a position of peace and spiritual honesty?

I have recently said that atheism suits my current state of mind better than any other option. However, I think I am becoming agnostic. Whatever I am, I feel like I am wasting my time by trying to define it. What is the purpose of a label, but to place someone in a little box? Labels exist less in a climate of inclusion and more in a climate of discrimination. Labels help others point and say, "you're a ______". I really don't want to BE anything but me. A me full of joy, love and peace.

So, I will continue my personal "New American Spiritual Journey" with Kundalini yoga, Reiki and a  Zen Buddhist meditation practice. My purpose on this planet has less to do with being a nameless, faceless member of a flock and more of a life full of purpose and assistance to my fellow travelers on this Earthly journey. If you need a shoulder to lean on or an all natural homemade hair conditioner, a friend for yoga class and a cup of tea or some Reiki time, just let me know. At the end of my time here, what will matter most is that what I did was a benefit to those around me. Not how much money I tithed to an institution that is one of the wealthiest in the world. I'd rather serve at a soup kitchen.

Tuesday's rant: Chris Brown is a jerk.

I have been so busy lately that I completely forgot my MILLIONS of fans who joyfully await my viral brain dumps. I am so sorry my lovelies and I promise that it will not happen again.

Today's mind spew revolves around some of the latest drama in the world of the men-children. They are always #winners in my book.

Anyone who knows me knows how I feel about a man who lays his hands on a woman in any manner other than a loving caress. I do, however, believe that a man who has been found guilty of domestic violence can be rehabilitated. I also think that if said man has been rehabilitated, he should be aware that his behavior could forever be identified with him. This means that he will be apologizing for a long time. He should be prepared for that eventuality and ready to be making amends for the duration.

Not a mature response, I know. It makes me happy, so I'll deal with it.

Enter Chris Brown. I saw the pictures of Rhianna's face after he assaulted her. It was brutal. To be fair, I also take issue with her little duet with Eminem (an abuser himself) in his song that, in my opinion glorifies domestic violence. I never LOVED anyone's lies. Sorry, darling.

Mr Brown ALLEGEDLY broke a window at GMA today after Robin Roberts questioned him about his past. Of course his entire entourage was in the room, so I am sure they are all going to run to his defense. The broken window rained glass on Times Square. Now, Mr. Brown is taking his violence to innocent people just walking down the street.

My point? I am sick and damned tired of people like Mel Gibson, Charlie Sheen, Eminem and Chris Brown who feel that they are somehow entitled to work out their puerile issues on the women in their lives. Guess what, no matter what the Bible, the Q'uran or whatever you claim validates your impotence says, YOU DO NOT, EVER, NEVER, NO WAY, HAVE THE RIGHT TO HIT A WOMAN. Go down to the bar and pick on someone who will lay you out. That's why men hit women. Because they are too cowardly to pick on someone they know will break their eye socket.

Another note, no one it ENTITLED to forgiveness. No one owes you forgiveness when you wrong them. It's a nice thing to do, forgive someone. But, you usually need to earn it.

I usually try to be more diplomatic and generous. I've just had enough with this childish behavior. Grow up Mr. Brown. You make me sick.

Grandmother, what a shiny hat you're wearing.

I am tired of people who are emotionally disturbed or have other miscellaneous issues putting their psychological garbage at my door. This is my manifesto.

If I am "selfish",  it is because I am well aware of the damage that permitting you to have unlimited access to my life would cause. If I am "controlling", it might be because you asked for my opinion or advice. Don't blame me if you ask what I think then don't like what you hear.


I understand that crazy people don't realize that they are crazy. It's an unfortunate conundrum for the insane. It's harder to get well when your brain is always telling you that you are right, even when you're wearing tinfoil to the movies.

Why this virulent manifesto to the insane?

When someone, even someone with their own page in the DSM IV makes a comment about myself or my attitude, I take the time to reflect. I feel that every statement, no matter how bizarre, has some basis in truth. I refuse to be a wacko in denial.


If you make a comment to or about me, I sit back and let it digest. Is it valid? Is there a lesson in here somewhere? I make the choice to open myself to the universe to teach me important lessons about being a better person.

I think it's about time you bought a mirror.